Hati Aku Sakit~~~

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye.....

Serius, something is wrong with me right now. Iman is not at peak, and I need some diagnostic tests. But, definitely, my heart is suffering. Some preliminary tests says that.Hurm... Ya Allah, help me.

Last liqa' Nuqaba', we have some discussions about hadeeth no 34 from Hadith 40.

Ill quote the Malay direct translation of the hadeeth (please look up the arabic version for accuracy):
Dari Abi Said al-Khudri r.a berkata:
Dia mendengar Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda:"Sesiapa melihat antara kamu perkara mungkar, maka hendaklah dia menegah (mengubah) dengan tangannya, maka sekiranya tidak mampu (berkuasa), maka dengan lidahnya, maka sekiranya tidak mampu maka dengan hatinya, dan itulah selemah-lemah iman."

I saw a mungkar action took place recently, but i didn't do anything at the spot. In the hadith, the word used was "fa"=thus, not "tsumma"=after that... Its time related, I should have acted upon it as i see it, not wait till its over, or wait till another mungkar act happened. But that point of time, the best I did was hating it, truly, and pray in my heart, please not let em do that...which is pathetic, coz i keep remembering this hadeeth we discussed, and I settled for the weakest of Iman... (and i feel depressed the whole night, duh).

As much as we can, we have to use our power first, then resort to the lesser option, but to admit defeat earlier on, was my embarrassment. Its a really good diagnostic test.

Its easy to call people to do good things, but its extremely hard to say, dont do that bad thing. maybe kinda easy to say, but when it happened directly in front of you, then its kinda hard, right. Sometimes you are afraid to say it. Afraid of getting embarrased, afraid of losing friends, afraid of being labelled Miss Goody Goody Girl or Mr Civic, stuff like that. But yeah, we know that we should fear Allah rather than fearing the humans. Coz then, in the Hearafter He will ask us why didnt we prevent, and if we say we are afraid of humans, then He will give it straight to our face, "By right you should fear Me."

We always pursuing the hikmah in giving advices, its a good thing pun. Stories about how Rasulullah s.a.w and Saidina Hassan n Hussein correcting people in creative and subtle ways, but effective, are really sweet and encouraging. But if you cant think of what to do, then you should not abandone the advice for hikmah. Paham ke? But remember that being harsh on people or matter that need harshness, that is hikmah too.

So, Ya Allah.. give me strength.

Okay, so, right now, while im at it, just let me say it. Sadly, we are almost desensetised by the vast amout of this mungkar thingy that happened, I think. Around us. Among us. But most of the time, I feel really disgusted... but am really sad, because these people seems to flaunt their sins. Im not saying that if you want to do sins, then do it in private. Theres no privacy in this world afterall, all you do, even the slightest smallest niat in ur heart, Allah knows. But combination of doing it, and exhibiting it WITH pride somemore, its hurm.. I dont know how to put it.

O my friends in love... to preach of loving for Allah's love is other topic, but let say you are in this relationship. Rule no.1, having a declaration or engagement doesnt make that girl/guy yours. So, BEHAVE! You know this thing about "La taqrobu zina..."="Dont get near zina", so hey, why should you cant even "get near" it? Coz you know if you play near the edge, the probability to fall is really high. And its really one thing leading to another, I dont need to elaborate, i think.

So whats with the eyes, and the hands that wander? And being really close, or even sticking together like velcro or something. And flaunt it live, publicly. Or even taking a happy2 lovey-dovey picture and showing off in friendster for all to see. Well, there are some ok couple pics, OK je la, coz theres considerable distance, maybe just for memories, ok la gak... like taking pics with frens... ok la kot. but frens or lovers, getting too close like ur gonna kiss or something, touching sommore, holding hands ke, hugging summore, or laying down together (what were u doing? Im not getting anywhere but, gosh, take care of urself la...) (saying this coz there are these happen)...come on my friends, i love you guys so im saying this, stop-lah. I dont want to jusdge people, i love you as friends, i love you as people, but some actions are sins or hovering near it, if sins are like fire, ur either burned or feel really hot right now.

some example with my lousy paint drawings (pics on frenster of live-action)-->

Kinda ok.

Haish....

If Im a mom I will cry. Its hard to imagine how you can show this to public and then some friends will give encouraging comments like, "waa.. ur so romantic." and stuff. Why cant you be more sensitive guys. Your friend needs help.

This is common, one thing becoz they usually take pic like this themselves. But for those who have this kind of picture, i like you as friends, im happy you found somebody, but i hate ur photos. (and im not jealous coz i dont have that kinda photos, Im just glad.)

I think im turning emo. And will nag. But Im sad i dont know how to say this in ur face, or even find nice way to say it. Hurm... will try.

Behave. Girls, you are valuable. Get yourself higher price tag. Im not wishing bad, but say u dont end up with that guy who has been all over you, i dont think ur future husband will appreciate ur history. Dont let that creep....creeps.hehe... Guys. Samela... Allah knows, remember that. There are far too many cases of "oopsies" even for Malay Muslim, which is too sad. It all started somewhere.

~~~Love yourself before you love someone else.~~~
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