Kingdom of Memories

Assalamualaikum and salam sejahtera...

SPM is over for barely a week and  my younger brother already asked me whether I still in posession of my A level books. I find it very hard to recall where I put them as I moved a lot since then and most  of my old stuff are resting either in peace or in pieces probably deep within a couple of boxes stowed away erraticly in our store room. To wander in mids of this chaotic mess would be a whole adventure by itself. There are stacks and lumps of once-loved and forgotten household items, trinkets and memories from the past that are hardly revisited, but harder still to be sent away to proper burial grounds. So there they lies, serving as the grand landscape in the poorly understood kingdom where the rats, shrews, geckos, mites, ants and roaches reigns. Have they embraced my old notes, my scribbles, my doodles as I put them away?

I advised my brother against his courage to venture to such a forgotten land in search for these manuscripts I myself unsure still exist. The book may be as ancient as I am, which is the fact I horrifiedly realised as I recount the years passed...
With my fingers I counted, 2 years of a level, 5 years of medic school and more than 3 years of service...
A decade has passed since then!
I felt so old, but none the wiser

So I asked him to buy new books go pave new paths for himself. Yes he can learn from my old books, from my footsteps, my foolish mistakes, my miseries and triumphs...
but he has to be the hero of his own saga written by his own hands.To search and find his rightful place and reason and stay steadfast to his faith and his very own self.

All the best and may Allah be with you.

What time does...

Assalamualaikum wbt and salam sejahtera.

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Be mindful of what you nurture.

If you water fruit trees and flowers with love you will reap fruits and flowers.

If you keep throwing venom you might breed serpents that will only come and bite you back.

Time is powerful.
Sometimes things get suspended in time.
Sometimes thing goes stale and forgotten.
Sometimes it slowly grows and when you realised you have no means to contain it and it will just devour you.

-drmyrisstyca

What time does...

Assalamualaikum wbt and salam sejahtera.

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Be mindful of what you nurture.

If you water fruit trees and flowers with love you will reap fruits and flowers.

If you keep throwing venom you might breed serpents that will only come and bite you back.

Time is powerful.
Sometimes things get suspended in time.
Sometimes thing goes stale and forgotten.
Sometimes it slowly grows and when you realised you have no means to contain it and it will just devour you.

-drmyrisstyca

Aku yang 11 tahun yang lalu

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh...

Dipertemukan aku dengan dua orang cikgu dari alma mater ku pagi tadi. Bila ditanya tahun SPM baru kusedar sudah 11 tahun berlalu. Cikgu masih nampak sama, masih mengajar di sekolah yang sama. Sedangkan pelajarnya berserakan di muka bumi, mengejar cara hidup yang tersendiri. Dan kalau ada masa dan jodoh, jalan hidup menemukan kita kemvali. Tapi pada setiap masa itu, kita masih murid dan mereka masih guru.

Ditanyakan, mahukah kembali ke sekolah bercakap dengan adik-adik sebagai motivasi. Lalu terkenangkan dori yang 11 tahun duli, ilmunua dan pengalamannya kurang sikit, tapi betapa optimisnya memandang ke depan. Kemahuanku jelas walau jalannya samar. Aku mahu jadi seorang doktor dan jika dapat jadi doktor aku telah berjaya. (Lebih indah lagi jika selepas sekolah bisa temui cinta dan bahagia selamanya <- pemikiran 17 tahun)

Seusai tamat persekolahan, diberikan beberapa peluang dan pilihan. Tidak kurang juga beberapa penolakan. Akhirnya jalan yang jelas terbentang dan aku memilih jalan itu dan Alhamdulillah impian ku tercapai. Dan apa yang menanti di sebalik sebuah impian?

Di sebalik impian yang yercapai terbentang lembah kemungkinan yang luas. Di datarannya tercambah impian-impian baru, jalan - jalan baru pun terbuka. Doktor apa? Doktor yang bagaimana mahu aku jadi? Setinggi mana lagi harus aku kejar? Sedlam mana harus aku pergi? Dan dimensi- dimensi baru terbuka lagi, keluarga semakin membesar, tanggungjawab kian bertambah, minat yang terpendam, bakat yang minta diasah, keinginan untuk menjelajah dunia, harapan untuk berbakti dan meninggalkan sebuah legasi... semuanya bercampur baur seperti ramuan dalam kendongan Musang Berjanggut. Aku harus menyusun hidupku dengan jelas dan membuang elemen yang tidak perlu.

Mujur ada pengalaman mengajarku. Impian aku yang 11 tahun lalu sememangnya begitu ringkas, tapi kemahuanku tinggi maka walaupun ada payahnya Alhamdulillah dipermudahkan juga. Kepayahan, kekecewaan dan waktu-waktu yang menyedarkan aku kekerdilan diri tetap ada dan Alhamdulillah, aku selalu didampingi sahabat dan keluarga. Terima kasih.

Dan malam ini, walaupun keletihan, aku harus bersemangat meneruskan usaha untuk menjadikan hidup ini bermakna.

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drMyrisstyca- 21 oct 2014