K.I.T.E : Strings attached.

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello to all...

[After few attempts to litter this site with scrambled words (yeah Im testing ur deciphering skills, my wise friends) , in both Malay and English alike, Im reverting to more easily understandable form. Hurrah!]

After we all have gone through our finals at the end of this term, Anne suggested that we all go for a kiting outing (not in financial term,ok?). To make our own kites. And fly them together. Maybe by the lovely Penang's beaches, where the wind is playful, or maybe on an open ground, where we can run without restrain. Without worries!

Kite...

Somehow it remids me of few scene in my childhood days. I was no taller than the windowsill, not even wiser than a cat. If I can show a playback from my cloudy and patchy memory, you will see Abah, Ibu, Ame, and maybe Iah (how old was her then??) in the large field in IPDA's grounds, where the grandstand stood, surrouded by 'saga' trees, across a river and a golf club. The sun must be bright then, but kind enough. How was the sky back then, was it clearer than it is today? I can't seem to recall. But what i remember was we played with plastic kites, they were white and there were picture of ultramanor spiderman or some mecha character in the middle. I think they were blue and grey and red in colour.

Abah taught us how to fly the kites, how to hold them during "take-off", when is the right time to release them, how fast to run, and how to tug the string slowly so they will rise gracefully,higher and higher, riding the wind. Back then, all we know was running around is fun, the kite in the sky looks magnificent and somewhat funny....

Little did we ponder, how many parameters needs to be right, for the kites to be able to fly perfectly, to go higher and stay longer in the sky. Its like a parent holding us, and nurturing us, tugging and letting lose, make us go against the wind and environment.... at the right time, and the right way. Its like the people in relationship, that needs to give and take, in order to advance and get to the higher level,somewhere more beautiful and wonderful, and all the time, holding tight on the string, not letting it go, or letting it snap.

It may snap sometimes, or maybe the wind blows in the wrong direction when we lest expect it, and the kite may plunge to to ground. Sometimes we have to repeatedly try to get the kite back in the air again, sometimes some repair is needed. Sometime the kite is stuck in the tree, and we need to fetch it back by all means. Some people just let it go... some people go and buy a new kite.Sometimes our kites collide and come down too.

Somehow its a lot like life, like how the kite flew in the sky and see so many things, oh, so vast the sky i want to fly to every ends of it, i want to greet every clouds, i want to know every birds. But we know they are certain limit to our life, the string, to guide us to fly safely. There's a limit. try to go beyond that and abandon your string... it will just lead you to your destruction.

Do you know when they fly kite like "wau bulan", in competition, sometimes people will glue grounded glass to the kite's string and if your string touch theirs, it will cut your string too. So, be careful! There's a lot of danger and not so nice people out there too!

Kite...

Its a simple creation, yet its ability to fly...I'm kinda jealous! I'm perhaps, still not wiser than a cat but Im flying my way now in my own sky, maybe not my own, Im sharing it with you guys...our playground. Only Allah knows for sure whether it will be cloudy or sunny or stormy tomorrow, but i hope we will all fly high together. And for the ones are guarding my strings, keep up your great work!!!! (^_^)v

Aku seorang stalker

Mengintai mahkotamu...
kuselimuti, Seluas pandangan kau jelajahi...
duniamu, atapnya setinggi langit itu...
digapai...menggapai tercapai aku.

Terang pandang, tepi tak tercari,
Hilang siang, beradu jadi satu,
Rentas terus pantas jangan cari pentas...
Masih ada jajahan polan dan polan,
Ceritera dan berita, kata dan nada,
Rahasia, dusta, hikam dan cinta....

Antara langit dan bumi, di situ kamu,
Antara baldu dan biru, di sini aku,
mengintai pada mahkotamu.

(P/S- Ini bukan sajak sbb sy x reti tulis sajak. Ni kalau Saadah baca sure dia nak muntah. Oh, dan ade satu teka-teki.... siapa aku dan siapa kamu dlm mende ni? senang je..)

Happiness

Happiness is not something you hold in your hands....

Its in everything you see, yet you couldn't really understand.
Its the air you breath, invigorating all the needs of you, yet you feel the chill, as death is dancing on you.
It the thing that runs in ur veins, infiltrating... it touches the whole existence of you, yet you dismiss it unless you bleed.

Its not something you need to search, to the end of the world....
Coz you world end when you end...
I pity you if it ends... before you realise, the happiness is in you.

Sole Night Eye

Dead and reborn, oh my sole night eye,
again & again & again & again,
Shine bright, sleep dim, black on black.
The vain ones & the envies, they wish to be picked,
but blow in loneliness, disappear into nothingness.
Coz the only one that makes me want to fly,
is my faraway sole night eye.

~Unloved~

Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it's not there...

Its just unseen,
unheard,
untouchable.

The moment it's seen it's polluted,
the moment it's heard it hurts,
the moment it's touched, it may shies away...

After all, you can't live without it.
The infiltrated you.

Its just destined, or hoping to be destined,
to be
Unloved.

A Very Special Day For My Very Special Abah

Assalamualaikumm wbt...

Today is a special day. But more special that, is the one today celebrates. My one and only Abah. Selamat Hari Lahir, and Happy Father’s Day. I don’t remember your birthday every year, but certainly I will remember your words. In everything that I do, till now, you have always provided me,(and 5 of us) with valuable advices. Its funny,but I took all your word “to heart”. Usually they are deep, even though you seems just say it in the passing.

Your passion to educate us, is something I adore most. Now I see “lessons” in every aspect of my life. All hardship is a training ground, all the nice memories are the ones I must struggle to preserve. When Im at the verge of breaking up, you remind me that its just a metamorphosis, and I shall emerge as a stunning butterfly. Just do things, be confident, deal with is…. Learn to manage, learn to mold into surroundings… When Im lazy, you reminded me, of what I want to be, what I want to do most. I… may be nowhere right now without your education, without your words, without your faith in me.

Abah tanye lebih2 kat cikgu tu, Iah pandang kerisauan.

The best thing is that, right now, you succeeded to do that while being our friend, by jumping into our shoes. To do the things we do… watch cartoons (You really did enjoy Tom and Jerry, right?), chatting, video conferences… and treat us generously to many wonderful places, many wonderful experiences.

Growing up, and watching my siblings growing up, I began to understand your philosophy in education. You instill strong basics, and let life experiences mold us. You trust us to go away… to learn. You let the elders to guide the younger. I used to feel dissatisfied, coz I thought I had it harsher when I was young. But then I understand, I am also a tutor in the family. I began to understand, the things shared, and the things to be discovered. Why you allowed this, why you say no to that. And forgive us for being rebellious sometimes. It can’t be helped. Sometimes message is lost during translation. It teaches us about communication too.

And thank you very much, for giving us a happy, loving family, a gift not everyone have. Thanks for keeping our family together, our house is really a sanctuary. Seriously, Im truly thankful to Allah for that. I know, that behind us, there’s a lot of unspoken things, things that we wont understand before. You must have worked so hard. We are sorry if sometimes we take things for granted. We never truly experience hardship, in my opinion.

Abah n ibu dapat parenting tips dari pasangan swan ni ke?

I know we have loads of interesting future that will greet us, but Abah, so far, you are doing such a fine job. Thank you for bringing us to this wonderful world. Thank you for caring, for loving, for nurturing us. Someday when we have my own family, we wont forget your everything you told us, and we’ll make sure, the next generation wont forget too.

You are, by far and forever, the most amazing dad I ever know. People may boast about their dad… but hey, they don’t get you. And I don’t want anybody else for a change. I love you soo much. I may fall in love, I may dream of a future family of my own, but you will always always be my most special Abah and you will always be important in our life. I may not be doing a good job now, I may still depend too much on you. You may still have to hold my hands, and Im sure I want to hold your hand forever… but I pray to Allah, may I be able to love you, and to do as much as I can for you before our fate ends, coz Im more than sure, I wont be able to repay you at all. Im sorry if I am not the epitome of a good daughter (malas n always trouble you) , but just know that I love you very very much.

p/s: Thank you to Ibu too. I might downplay your role in this post, because its Abah’s birthday special, but ibu…. You are my everything too!

P/ss: Exam tomorrow!!! Pray for me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAPPY FATHER"S DAY

-ibu-muni-ame-iah-ake-aiman-

(naun pon tumpang sekaki)

Lets walk hand in hand forever!

Assalamualaikum wbt....

Stumbled upon this song while browsing youtube.
Suki desu!



Dedicated to ppl who walk beside me all this while, and for those who dedicated to walk hand in hand with me forever! ARIGATOU!!!!

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Sakura (Cherry Blossom) by Funky Monkey Babys
Lyrics: FUNKY MONKEY BABYS, Kawamura Yuka
Music: FUNKY MONKEY BABYS , Kawamura Yuka

*Tears of gratitude are overflowing in my heart now
I want to protect you forever, forever
Cherry blossoms fall, they fall on us as we feel brand new
Let’s walk hand in hand forever, forever
Until the end of time…

I’ll speak from my heart now and tell you how I truly feel for the first time
I have these emotions, without any lies, only for you
It was so hard for me but I never showed it to anyone else
With you, I felt like I could shed all the tears I kept deep in my heart
From here on out, this path we’re walking on together
Will be full of happiness, sadness and many other things
But you’re not alone anymore because I’ll protect you forever
You gave me all this strength that I have now

(Repeat*)

How many times have we watched these cherry blossoms?
I want to see them again next year and the year after that
I want to see the future we’ve been building up together all this time
The spring wind blew gently and softly caressed your hair
Your smile is precious to me, I want you by my side forever
At first I only had my own dreams, but now I share yours
So my dream now is to protect you until yours come true
I’m sure we’ll fight sometimes, but we’ll make it through each one
Just making you happy is everything to me

(Repeat*)

As the days roll by me it feels like I’ll lose sight of them
But when I look at you a smile suddenly appears on my face
I’ll never forget that small joy

We met, we laughed, and inside our clasped hands
We softly, softly warmed our love
After winter, we started walking together on this path
Where the cherry blossoms fall forever, forever

Tears of gratitude are overflowing in my heart now
I want to protect you forever, forever
Cherry blossoms fall, they fall as we feel brand new
Let’s walk hand in hand forever, forever
Until the end of time…

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Romaji:

*arigatou no namida ga ima kono mune ni afureteru yo
zutto zutto kimi wo mamoritai
sakura ga furu sakura ga furu atarashii bokura no ue ni
zutto zutto te wo tsunaide aruite ikou
itsu made mo…

ima hajimete uchi akeru yo boku no hontou no kimochi wo
daisuki na kimi ni dake itsuwari no nai kono kimochi wo
zutto kurushikatta dare ni mo misenakatta
mune no oku no hou ni tamatta namida kimi to nara nagaseru ki ga shita
kore kara saki boku to kimi ga aruite iku kono michi ni wa
ureshii koto kanashii koto iro iro aru to omou
dakedo mou hitori ja nai boku ga zutto mamoru kara
sonna tsuyosa wo kureta no wa zenbu kimi nan da

(Repeat*)

futari de miru nankaime no sakura darou? mata rainen sarainen mo mitai yo
ima made kore kara mo ashita kara mo tomo ni kizuki agete iku mirai wo
yawarakaku fuita haru no kaze ga sotto kimi no kami wo nabikaseta
sono egao ga itoshii zutto boku no soba ni ite hoshii
moto moto hitori dake no yume datta hazu ga kimi no yume mo kasanatte
sore wo kanaeru tame ni kimi wo mamori nuku koto ga ima no yume ni natte
tama ni wa kenka wo suru koto mo aru darou
demo hitotsu hitotsu nori koete
tada kimi wo shiawase ni suru koto ga ima no boku mo subete

(Repeat*)

nagasareru hibi no naka mi ushinai sou dakedo
futo kimi wo mitara nanigenai egao de
sonna chiisa na shiawase zutto wasurenai kara

kimi to deai kimi to warai tsunaida te no hira no naka de
sotto sotto atatameta omoi ga
fuyu wo koete aruki dashita bokura no kono michi no ue ni
zutto zutto sakura ga furu

arigatou no namida ga ima kono mune ni afureteru yo
zutto zutto kimi wo mamoritai
sakura ga furu sakura ga furu atarashii bokura no ue
zutto zutto zutto te wo tsunaide aruite ikou
itsu made mo…

Ntah la....

Salam.

Sebelum rest, ade satu citer sedih nk dikongsi.

Satu hari lepas balik kolej, sy pon berjalan naik tangga nk balik umah. Terserempak ngan sorng makcik dan anak lelaki kecik beliau. Tengah turun. Adela 3-4 tahun kot budak tu. Budak tu nk makan lepat pisang ke kue ape ntah. Makcik tu dgn motherly-nye, bukakkan kueh tu, dalam pembalut daun pisang.Happy gak aa tgk-kn? Sweet jer.

So sy pun naikla, balik umah dll...

Esoknya. Sy pun nk turun la, nk g kolej ni. Lalula kat tempat nampak makcik tu semalam. Heartbreak tol bile nampak pembalut pisang tu atas tangga. Sedih gak aa tgk-kn?

Sbb makcik tu lupe nk ajar anak dia, x leh buang sampah merate2.
Mungkin mak makcik tu jugak lupe nk ajar makcik tu pasal tu kot.
Tak pun nenek dia x ajar mak dia.
Kesian betul.

Masalahnye, yg kesian bukannye makcik tu n anak dia je. Anak2 n keturunan diorg jugak.
Pastu, menyusahkan org kene kemaskan. Sian jiran-jiran dia, termasukla sy.
Pastu, kalau kuman membiak kat sampah tu, kang org lain jugak sakit.
Pastu, kalau ade org terpijak jatuh tangge, ha, sape nk jawab.

Ntah la.

Org lain sume pk masalah global warming ke, swine flu ke, politik negare ke....
Napela aku nk serabai pasal ni kn?

Hahaha....

bende2 besar tu....dtg dr bende2 kecik aaa. kn kn kn?

Pastu bende kecik camtu, patutnye mak die ajar.
So, sempena dgn area2 org tgh rase lovey-dovey ngan para ibu sekalian...
disini diingatkan kepada para ibu...
ajar anak elok2!!!
ok?

And for those who has done wonderful job, tahniah!!!!
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Ni bukan nk menyalahkan para ibu sekalian. Sy yakin banyak lg environmental factor yg len boleh mempengaruhi. Citer ni hanye diputarbelit untuk tujuan dramatik.

Anda suka tak berkawan dengan murid khas..?

"Anda suka tak berkawan dengan murid khas..?"

"Suka, kerana murid khas sama macam kita bukan sesiapa."

Assalamualaikum wbt dan selamat sejahtera sahabat2...

Apa khabar ya kalian? Moga Allah sentiasa mempermudahkan perjalanan kalian menempuhi hidup, kerarah keredhaanNya jua.

Dulu, banyak saya paparkan cebisan2 kata-kata hikmah. Kali ini saya hadir untuk memaparkan beberapa untaian kata yg lahir dari hati-hati kecil yang belum dicemari. Aduhai... sungguh skema sekali, mengapakah?

Sengaja saya mahu kongsikan beberapa dapatan dari kajian bonda tersayang untuk projek universiti beliau. Beliau menjalankan cerapan terhadap keberkesanan program pendidikan inklusif terhadap kanak-kanak istimewa yang merupakan pelajar dari kelas Pendidikan Khas Bermasalah Pembelajaran. Kanak-kanak ini selalunya dimasukkan ke kelas PKBP kerana ada masalah seperti Schitzopherenia, autism, hyperactive, Down syndrome dan macam-macam lagi. Untuk memberi peluang pembelajaran yang sama-rata dengan sahabat-sahabat mereka yang ditakrifkan masyarakat seperti normal, kanak-kanak ini diasuh dan kemudian dinilai untuk ditempatkan di kelas aliran perdana (kelas biasa). Jadi, mereka pun boleh cuba belajar mata pelajaran KBSR dan diharapkan boleh mengikuti peperiksaan UPSR.

Salah satu tujuan lain juga untuk mendedahkan kanak-kanak ini kepada tatacara sosial kanak-kanak biasa di bilik darjah. Selepas ini saya akan kongsikan beberapa jawapan murid biasa (darjah 4 dan 5) terhadap soalan, "Anda suka tak berkawan dengan murid khas di kelas anda?"

TIDAK SUKA

"Kerana saya takut diganggu."
"Kerana dia suka membuat bising."
"Kerana dia nakal."
"Kerana selalu mengacau murid-murid lain membuat kerja."
"Kerana ia selalu mengganggu saya."
"Kerana dia sangat mengada-ngada."
"Kerana murid khas memang nakal."

"Kerana tak kenal sangat."

"Saya tak kawan dengan dia tapi saya akan membantunya."

"Kerana dia lelaki saya perempuan." <-- cute! SUKA

"Kerana dia pandai."
"Kerana dia pandai matematik."
"Kerana dia pandai cakap Inggeris."
"Kerana dia suka baca buku."

"Dia selalu buat lawak"

"Baik dan tak ganggu orang."
"Kerana ia selalu membantu saya."
"Kerana dia berbaik dengan kita apabila kita berbaik dengannya."


"Saya tak pasti tapi suka melihat mereka."

"Dia lebih istimewa daripada kita."
"Sebab dia murid yang istimewa."
"Kerana kita mesti berkawan dengan murid pendidikan khas."

"Sebab dia boleh belajar bersama-sama."

"Kerana saya simpati kepada mereka yang sederhana."
"Sebab ia murid memang istimewa. Dan ia seorang yang sederhana."


JAWAPAN PILIHAN (Sbb budak ni jawab dengan jujur, tapi kelakar.)

"Kerana murid kelas khas boleh menggembirakan kita. Saya rasa simpati pada mereka. TAPI saya suka berkawan dengan kawan-kawan saya."

"Ya, saya SUKA berkawan dengannya sebab dia degil, selalu tidak menyiapkan kerja sekolah dan sebagainya." <-- adik ni salah ckp ke?

"Kerana ia suka mengacau murid-murid untuk belajar, melastik kawan dan menjawab dan baling pemadan kena kawan dan baling batu sampai berdarah tangan kawan." <-- adik ni melepaskan geramnya setelah sekian lama terpendam.

"Saya tidak suka sebenarnya saya suka murid pendidikan khas tapi sikit-sikit." <-- cute!

"Saya tidak suka sebenarnya kalau murid khas masuk ke kelas kami. Jika masuk ke kelas asal saya suka."

"Saya tidak tahu yang cikgu suruh." <-- budak ni x paham soalan, hahaha

"Sebab dia baik dan suka berkawan tetapi degil dan nakal."


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Itu saja sebahagian jawapan yang ditulis oleh adik-adik kita. Banyak kesimpulan yang boleh diambil bagi tujuan kajian dan baik pulih program ini. Tapi yang ingin saya sampaikan ialah... ntah la... budak2 ni mmg cute.

kn kn kn???

Or was it you?

Creaking rusty gears,
revolving pedals,
Tires cutting puddles into two,
Fallen leaves infusions,
Last night it poured,
That day was it sunny bright,
Or was it you?