Post-exam = Post Ictal

Its day 1 after POPPH (Psychiatry, Obs and Gynae, Paediatrics and Public Health) final exams a.k.a 2 weeks of horror with different discipline back to back everyday, the written, the OSCE and the clinical examination. It still feels surreal. I had like 101 plans for after exam, list of movies to watch, dramas to swoon, painting to finish and ATC (Artist Trading Card) to make, postcards and letters to write, places to go, cake to bake... haha... it might overshoot 101. But here I am blankly staring at the wall... oh I see a spider... lets add no 102. Cleaning my room.


For me, post-exam state is just like post-ictal state.
"Following a seizure it is common to experience feelings of exhaustion, both mental and physical, that can last for a day or two."
The symptoms are...

• Depression (suddenly loss the "reason for living on" which is during exams, reading and practicing a lot.)
• Loss of energy (energy supplies drained in 2 weeks of staying up and poor diet.)
• Drowsiness ( "PILLOWS~~~")
• Nausea 
• Confusion and inability to think clearly, specifically “poor attention and concentration, poor short term memory, decreased verbal and interactive skills, and a variety of cognitive defects specific to individuals. (what should I do???)
• Hypertension and maybe migrain also, haha (coz thinking of your performance during exam and also the impending result).

Hurm, exam is also pretty much like an induced seizure ("abnormal excessive or synchronous neuronal activity in the brain" = READ READ READ READ READ...)... we know its coming but usually still manage to shake our nerves to the core. Lucky for me it only last 2 weeks, if not Im going to have "status epilepticus", which is life threatening!!!

Joking aside, Alhamdulillah Im glad its over. So, lets hope for the best my dear friends. I will definitely miss my POPPH group, and hopefully as Ayu suggest we can have some nice plans after the elective months. A reunion? Commemorating our entry into the last semester of our medical education? I do pray all of us will get the best result!

p/s- to non-medic friends, sorry for a slighly "medical" content. 

Google it.

Salam and hi,

I was messing around with youtube with my brother last night. See what we found! I know its an old video, but they are still good. :)












:) Have a nice day!

Good luck to all my friends studying for POPPH finals!

This is how it feels like...

I was driving alone on a bridge across the sea. The destination unknown. Then I realized, the railings at the side of the road is gone, and the sea water has raise up to the point, it’s the same level as the tar on the bridge. I keep driving, afraid of falling into the sea. But the bridge had its own twist, it did a dip into the sea. In front of me I saw a massive pile-up from both directions. I can’t stop, I was going too fast. My car flew into the air, into the sea.

I opened my eyes, "I am drowning". I couldnt get off my seat, I was trapped in my seatbelt. I was just going to die.

I opened my eyes again, and sumhow I was free. I floated up to the surface. There are a lot of other cars, floating in the sea. Waves and tides came and crash, but I was saved. Somehow im flying up in the air. Perhaps there was a helicopter??? (deus ex machina much???)

But I was saved. Then somehow i ended up...in a different dream.