Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Between Today and Tomorrow~

In the pocket between today and tomorrow...
I hope there may exist a day or a half or a quarter,
When everyone in the world will wake up and find everyone in their own world is themselves....
just for a day or a half or a quarter,
For I think it will change tomorrow... perhaps for a little bit.

Monday, April 19, 2010

[A Stem and 5 Leaves]: Hearties

Assalamualaikum wbt n hye all...

[Stem and Leaf 1]

Someone took me to dinner this nite...
That person said, "Remind me to give you something later."
"Okay"...

So we finished our dinner, laughing away over funny Mentor audition...walking to the car...
That person gave me this....


It was a pleasant surprise.... there were no ocassions. And it was a well thought gift.

"I saw U watch quite a while at the beads last time ...'nk beli ke x?' plus, U like anything green"
"Hey, You gave me all the plant or some je?"
"Haha... all ler."

I just feel like someone give me their heart. "Take care of it..." a meaning I attached to it.

People gave me their hearts before, they gave me their hope, and their trust.
As much that I said Im thankful... sumetimes I wonder if I really did appreciate them fully,
like they should be appreciated.
To this point of time, I still cannot say that I took care of them properly.
To this point of time, I still cannot say, "hey, rest assured, I won't let you down."
For that I am sorry.
Its frustrating.

Fundamentally I SHOULD be capable of all that.
Coz other people can.
Maybe because, I never reciprocate them fully.
I gave my heart, I laid my hope, i built my trust.
but I always keep a portion to myself....
a stupid blanked around to protect/defend the stupid ego?
Keep a bit so its okay if you lose it later... if you messed up...
Maybe thats why... you always lose it.
Coz you are EXPECTING it.

Have you ever loved, hoped and trusted fully?
Have you ever been truly thankful?
I should learn to do that STAT!


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[Leaf 2]


The saddest thing to lose is not the heart of the one you love the most, or the heart of a friend you wish will never forsaken you, or the heart that you hope will shelter you.

Yes...the saddest thing to lose is not the heart of the one you love the most, but to lose YOUR OWN HEART.

Well, in case the person that you love the most is yourself, which is true most of the time... it is more tragic.

If you lose it dear, I hope you will find it soon. (",)v

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[Leaf 3]


Siblings fight. Jealousy. Rivalry. Misunderstanding.
Drifting apart...
In the end of the day, they may not realise there is a bond greater than the fact that they are always together...
but they always come together again.
At least 95% of the normal population. I think (hehe).

Who are the one who will stand for you when the world collapse against you?
Your "real" brothers and sisters!

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[Leaf 4]


Rasulllah s.a.w pernah bersabda bermaksud, " Seseorang itu akan mengikuti agama sahabatnya, oleh kerana itu, setiap orang dari kamu sekalian hendaklah memerhatikan siapa yang ia jadikan sebagai teman."
(hadith riwayat At-Tirmidzi, Abu Daud dan Ahmad.)

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[Leaf 5]

Disebutkan Habib Abdullah bin Alwi al Haddad: Sabdaan Rasulullah s.a.w yang bererti: "Permisalan teman duduk yang baik adalah seperti penjual haruman misk (wangian yang paling mahal dan harum). Boleh jadi dia memberimu, atau engkau membeli wangiannya atau engkau mencium keharuman wangiannya. Sedangkan misalan teman duduk yang buruk adalah seperti tukang besi. Boleh jadi dia membakar pakaianmu, atau engkau akan mencium aroma busuk darinya."
(Hadith riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim dengan matan sedikit berbeza)