Teach me how to love...

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Im taking some time from my studies. But I need to get this out of my system. Again. Maybe. Whatever.

I have questions to ask, and some of them feels stupid. I just feel that i lost myself these days. But will you bear with me?

Firstly, do you ever feel you have limited ability to love or feel emphatic? Or is it just you love ppl in different way than people do? Or u truly defective somehow?

What if you realise some day that you never care? Or you do, but its never enough?

What if you know its happening, you know u need to do something, but u just dont know what to do and just be there... but do nothing. Coz its awkward. Its hurt knowing but just cant do it. But you were there. Just there. Is it still caring? Is it still love?

Is just feeling it inside and not acting is love? They say, love is not love until you give it away. If its true, how will you feel if you know, you never truly love?

What if you think u love but never show? Will the other party feels it too? I know my dua will always reach there, insya-Allah. But, are we falling apart if we just drift away?

Is longings love?

How to love unconditionally? How can you brush off these little things that keeps bugging?

How to truly belong? Coz I want to be there...

Hurm... I have more but words seems to escape my fingers (coz im typing, ngeh!).But surely Ill find an answer if I just return to Him. And if I purify my heart a bit more.

"Jika ada kasih antara kita, kita kembalikan kepada Yang Esa" <- lirik lagu Sahabat Perjuangan. This is dedicated to all my IMAM 07/08 tanzim. And for the ones who are willing...

Teach me how to love,
Show me where i stand
Catch me when i fall
Pick me up again
Teach me how to feel
When to take a breath
How the people heal
When they're scared to death

Teach me how to love,
when the sun turns to rain
How to give too much,
Without expecting back the same
Teach me how to love,
when I’ve lost my way
How to not give up
When I wanna run away
Teach me how to love

Give me room to fail
Let me make mistakes
Help me mend my heart
It always seems to break

Teach me how to love,
when the sun turns to rain
How to give too much,
Without expecting back the same
Teach me how to love,
when I’ve lost my way
How to not give up
When I wanna run away
Teach me how to love

Love...

Love is the answer they say
But it’s hard to find it

I...
I won’t get out of my own way
til’l i fall deep inside it

Teach me how to love,
when the sun turns to rain
How to give too much,
Without expecting back the same
Teach me how to love,
when I’ve lost my way
How to not give up
When I wanna run away
Teach me how to love