My best beloved!

Assalamualaikum wbt...

This little note, is special, to the love of my life.

You are my pulse that beats throughout my whole life... and beyond, because you are my gate to heaven. You are to me, heaven sent. And the fact that I was sent to you, the most amazing person in the world, 25 years ago, is something that I will forever cherish, and the best thing that can happen to me.

You are the most special person to me, today, and any other day. Everyday is special to be because you are here with me. Because you, made me who I am. For that my sweet dear Ibu, I'm wholeheartedly thankful to you. You and Abah raised me a person that will love herself and this life so much, cause you made this world a wonderful place as soon as I know this world. I bet, Ibu... because the first thing I know about in this world is you.

My sweet lovely best beloved Ibu dear,
I can be doing all the things in the whole world but Allah knows I can never ever pay for all you have done for me. From my learning I saw how a lady go through giving birth, and God willing I will know how it feels, but I will never know how much pain and sacrifices exactly that you have gone through for me. For all those my sweet beloved Ibu, no matter what I do I will always be indebted in your love. And the only thing I can do is to pray and pray... Oh, Allah ... bless you with true happiness and Jannah.

~ To my dear Ibu, Naemah Ismail~

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I include a super old video I edited long time ago.

Kudoakan Syurga Buatmu....

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Untuk abah, yg budi didikan kasih dan harapanmu membesar dan menyuburkan kami...kudoakan syurga buatmu.

For you who are insisting to drive me 5 hours only to go home back by bus because im alone and so tired .... on ur birthday, and on this special day, and as I will always do, I pray that the heaven is for you.

Untuk ibu, yg budi didikan kasih dan harapanmu membesar dan menyuburkan kami...kudoakan syurga buatmu.

For you who showed us that age, time and family is nothing against passion of learning, striving and doing your best, on this day of ur graduation, and on all the days left in my life, I pray that the heaven is for you.

A Very Special Day For My Very Special Abah

Assalamualaikumm wbt...

Today is a special day. But more special that, is the one today celebrates. My one and only Abah. Selamat Hari Lahir, and Happy Father’s Day. I don’t remember your birthday every year, but certainly I will remember your words. In everything that I do, till now, you have always provided me,(and 5 of us) with valuable advices. Its funny,but I took all your word “to heart”. Usually they are deep, even though you seems just say it in the passing.

Your passion to educate us, is something I adore most. Now I see “lessons” in every aspect of my life. All hardship is a training ground, all the nice memories are the ones I must struggle to preserve. When Im at the verge of breaking up, you remind me that its just a metamorphosis, and I shall emerge as a stunning butterfly. Just do things, be confident, deal with is…. Learn to manage, learn to mold into surroundings… When Im lazy, you reminded me, of what I want to be, what I want to do most. I… may be nowhere right now without your education, without your words, without your faith in me.

Abah tanye lebih2 kat cikgu tu, Iah pandang kerisauan.

The best thing is that, right now, you succeeded to do that while being our friend, by jumping into our shoes. To do the things we do… watch cartoons (You really did enjoy Tom and Jerry, right?), chatting, video conferences… and treat us generously to many wonderful places, many wonderful experiences.

Growing up, and watching my siblings growing up, I began to understand your philosophy in education. You instill strong basics, and let life experiences mold us. You trust us to go away… to learn. You let the elders to guide the younger. I used to feel dissatisfied, coz I thought I had it harsher when I was young. But then I understand, I am also a tutor in the family. I began to understand, the things shared, and the things to be discovered. Why you allowed this, why you say no to that. And forgive us for being rebellious sometimes. It can’t be helped. Sometimes message is lost during translation. It teaches us about communication too.

And thank you very much, for giving us a happy, loving family, a gift not everyone have. Thanks for keeping our family together, our house is really a sanctuary. Seriously, Im truly thankful to Allah for that. I know, that behind us, there’s a lot of unspoken things, things that we wont understand before. You must have worked so hard. We are sorry if sometimes we take things for granted. We never truly experience hardship, in my opinion.

Abah n ibu dapat parenting tips dari pasangan swan ni ke?

I know we have loads of interesting future that will greet us, but Abah, so far, you are doing such a fine job. Thank you for bringing us to this wonderful world. Thank you for caring, for loving, for nurturing us. Someday when we have my own family, we wont forget your everything you told us, and we’ll make sure, the next generation wont forget too.

You are, by far and forever, the most amazing dad I ever know. People may boast about their dad… but hey, they don’t get you. And I don’t want anybody else for a change. I love you soo much. I may fall in love, I may dream of a future family of my own, but you will always always be my most special Abah and you will always be important in our life. I may not be doing a good job now, I may still depend too much on you. You may still have to hold my hands, and Im sure I want to hold your hand forever… but I pray to Allah, may I be able to love you, and to do as much as I can for you before our fate ends, coz Im more than sure, I wont be able to repay you at all. Im sorry if I am not the epitome of a good daughter (malas n always trouble you) , but just know that I love you very very much.

p/s: Thank you to Ibu too. I might downplay your role in this post, because its Abah’s birthday special, but ibu…. You are my everything too!

P/ss: Exam tomorrow!!! Pray for me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAPPY FATHER"S DAY

-ibu-muni-ame-iah-ake-aiman-

(naun pon tumpang sekaki)

My Mom on News, ngehe~~~

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Got this link from Abah (thx abah, I love you!). This is from Eduweb TV, they have daily news about education in Malaysia.

CLICK HERE

(just in case the link doesnt work -> http://streaming.schoolnetwork.com.my/eduwebtv/media/berita/2008/10/20081001030230_BM_031008.wmv?WMContentBitrate=150000 )

Ibu will be interviewed around 4th mins maybe...coz her school was involved in Bumi Hijau (Green Earth) Programme. Its about reviving agricultural education in school. Its really good pun, coz in this era that you can get everything in supermarket, many kids of even adults has failed to realise how hard it is to get food. Coz you can just throw money to TESCO and there ur groceries come. Hehe... Apekah point sy nih?

Its fun too, watching the plants grow. A lot of science are involved in the process, so if the teachers can point these out to the students it would be really great!

And u get the harvest summore! Thats my favourite part!

But of coz its important to instill responsibility in the childrens too.

II project desu ne?

p/s- can see my mom in vid pun, i feel so nice dy. Miss my family~~~

Amateur Muralist-s.

Assalamualaikum wbt...

My mom testing the golden Pelaka.

90% me 10% ibu. Inspired by her tudung, some weed flower and a chilli plant.

Sudut Kerjaya in Counselling room.

Work in progress, its a lot of work but i enjoy every drop of paint i used (and spilled).

My bro wonderful painting, i just colour the skin part, and add the details of infections at the hands and fingers and the eye, till my mom beg me to stop becoz she dont want the schoolkids to freakout.

Proud collab. by me and my parents.Batik style.
Me and my bro Amir, did this in 2 days.
My mom and her staff did this.
Sweet collaboration of me, all my siblings and ibu.
Heliconia and ficus by me and ibu. Abah love heliconia so ibu said this is dedicated to him.

Its been a while, guys.I've been kinda busy right now. Painting.Painting walls. Murals, yeah.Its been 9 walls since i got back. Quite much kan?I left my external hard drive at school...perhaps later ill show u the 9 walls.And my shabby painting skills. But i had fun. Soo much. and somehow i think, in alternate reality, perhaps im a muralist. Im not trying to say that im good, its just i love it. It pays well too. One pakcik said, for one wall of 3x6m wall, i can get around RM4000.00. Its moneymaking if we can be a pro. But im not...hehe. just an amateur. But its fun, and challenging as well. Coz im making those mural to order, so they are like missions, assignments, with specific clients' needs.

I think the best part of the job is i paint at school, on the hallways. So, in a way i got my own viewers, fans and supporters. And they are cute school children...curious and eager. they will stop on their way to class, or the assembly place, or the canteen...stop to see me paint. And ask this and that...
"How do u do it?"
"Where do u learn to paint?"
And throw some compliments.. (hehe, let just call em encouragements.)
"Lawala cikgu" -->yup they call me teacher, and i love it. Coz to me, teachers are honorable beings. Cuter, if we walk pass em, they will give this super polite bow and say, "Assalamualaikum cikgu...aww...can i take one of em as pet?
And when we draw, they will try to guess what we are trying to do, what word we are trying to write.

Then, after the murals are done...they really like it. And one of my favorite thing is, the mural does deliver the intended message. For example, i did one that has these words, "Hidup Berkualiti Tanpa Dadah." Even before the completion, the kids that pass by will chant the wordings... it makes my heart flowers in happiness every time i heard that phrase. And i did one with this scary looking sick pakcik on top of drugs, to portray that drugs mess up with ur life bad. While painting, i heard the kids discussing that they hate drugs, cigarette and all that. I guess, murals are really great medium to get the msg tru...and also beautify the school. All this, make me very fond of the tiring job, itself.

It takes like 3 days to finish a wall average.By a day...its like 10 am till 7pm. I use PELAKA, mural colour...Mom gets me all the colours and tools that i need, even the apron. The tools:
> brushes. Loads of em.
> palates. but usually i just mix the colours on pelaka lids.
> chair and ladder. It gets high sometimes.
> pencil and ruler and eraser. For sketching.
> old newspapers. For alas and dabbing dry the brushes.
> Water. u noe la.
> Lacquer spray. for glossy and lasting mural.
Mom bought a tube of gold shiny pelaka for outline of our batik murals. It cost RM130 per Kg. Gle mahal,kn?

But im glad, my whole family can help sometimes.
> Ibu. She's the boss. One who give out missions. And responsible for most of concept, and sometimes design and coloring. Shes really good at painting leaves.
> Abah. His coloring (tones and shades) is really nice.Usually helps a bit before we get home.
> Ame. Super good sketch. His style is solid colour, so usually i help with shades.
> Madihah. Ultra-patient and superb with outlines. Her outlines are thin and smooth.
> Hamdan. Very good with coloring but have hard time staying at the site coz he's extremely ezly distracted by.....
> Aiman. basicly, he's the best critics around. He's so mean u will cry. Just dont let he touch that brush! Or he will do it his own way.
> Me? I do all the job. But my weakness is the outlining.

I think we can make a business out of painting mural.

p/s: I wanna learn n try to make graffiti or graffiti style painting.

Me Mama in Mr. Mama

Assalamuaaikum....

one, two, three... carik!

Aiman HoNeY-BuNNy, Tanjoubi Omedeto Gozaimasu!

Assalamualaikum wbt...

This post is dedicated to my beloved Honey-Bunny Aiman Syakirin. Happy Birthday my dear!
I have no big present for you, does me coming home next month will be enough? Hehe...


Uve grown loads, my boy. I cant imagine how famous you are at school. So active and being "hot-stuff" some more, hihi. But Im glad ur the kind of kid who knows what he wants and work for it. Im glad my boy, Im sooo glad.


Ur still so funny and so cheeky. I want to pinch yor cheek a little bit too, hihi.

I wish you will continue to grow to be a soleh son and be useful to everyone. My boy, life is still far fro you, insyaAllah, and in the end, its just for the sake of Allah.

My dear, Im coming home... and let us share our stories and our hope. And I hope I can share this wonderful thing with you. A love bigger than u ever imagine. HIS and only HIS.

I love you my dear, may Allah bless you with his hidayah and rahmat, may you always be in best of health and circumstances. I miss you, but not for long now.



p/s-- PIBA (Persatuan Ibu Bapa dan Anak) akan besidang kembali!

Neuroscience and computer science?

Assalamualaikum and hye...
I had a good chat with Abah last night, its really interesting that he relate brain to CPU (not literally but i think thats what he mean). So, a chat between a medical student and IT person is not just like a duck and a cat trying to converse in "quacks" and "mews".

Abah : saja je tanya,... subjek mana yang muni rasa susah sikit?
Me : hehehe...stakat ni yang agak susah ialah neuroscience
sebab dia macam "abstrak" sikit
tapi kalau baca betul2 boleh jer

(Allah help me, I think I just messed up my neuroanatomy spotter)

Abah : ni pasal-pasal urat-urat lah, sinap-sinap tu.
Me : aah
pasal otak jugak
nampak macam sebijik jer tapi sungguh complicated

(Complicated by Avil Lavigne was playin in my head)

Abah : signal-signal, blink-blink

(bling-bling??)

Me : yup2...
neuron ni relay dekat mana, pergi mana, control apa
muni ade blaja pasal parkinson, control of movement
Abah : tu lah.... kalau kita boleh bayangkan macam komputer, dari mana ... pas
tu signak gi cepat... lalu gateway, directed to periperal yang ditentukan
oleh mictroprosesor (otak) pas tu bila sampai... maklumat tu diinterpret
.... pas tu respons balik untuk diproses. dan beri feedback.. cam tu kan.
Macam konsep fly by wire lah.
Me : hahaha
boleh tahan jugak dia punya perbandingan tu

(sebenarnya tak faham pun fly by wire tu apa....)

Abah : macam parkinson tu agaknya macam circuit yang dah ada block, (kena
air agaknya) jadi software yang control tak boleh execute sepenuhnya....
sebab ada defective protein menghasikan neurogenerative disorder... ada
midbrain dopamine neuron loss... ye ke?
Me : aah, kurang dopamine dan sbb ade masalah dengan basal ganglia
x taula sbb masuk air ke kenape, hehe
ni x boleh main nyelam2 lama2 ni
hehehe
Abah : dopamine kan nero transmitter... jadi bila air masuk, transmission
terganggu... masa tak transmit pun dia transmit signal pulak, tu la yang
body periperal dok gerak-gerak je agaknya.
Me : mana berkaitan dgn air! hehe
abah, muni dah ngantukla

(Sebenarnya tak pandai nak terangkan pasal parkinson ni, so, terus saja buat alasan untuk tukar topik. Rasa bersalah sahaja. I think it wud be really interesting if i can explain what i learn properly. Maybe Abah can tell me more about the parables and stuff.Its because i havent been studying properly... huhu)

I love chatting with Abah. He's a lot cuter online! And funnier. But I like it mostly because everytime we chat, without fail, he will say things that open my mind, say things that motivates me, say things that matters. He made me feel more matured but still spoil me like Im his little girl. And best of all, I can read the same sentences all over again. (and you can save the conversations).


"Just get prepared je lah... everything should be ok."