~Unloved~

Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it's not there...

Its just unseen,
unheard,
untouchable.

The moment it's seen it's polluted,
the moment it's heard it hurts,
the moment it's touched, it may shies away...

After all, you can't live without it.
The infiltrated you.

Its just destined, or hoping to be destined,
to be
Unloved.

A Very Special Day For My Very Special Abah

Assalamualaikumm wbt...

Today is a special day. But more special that, is the one today celebrates. My one and only Abah. Selamat Hari Lahir, and Happy Father’s Day. I don’t remember your birthday every year, but certainly I will remember your words. In everything that I do, till now, you have always provided me,(and 5 of us) with valuable advices. Its funny,but I took all your word “to heart”. Usually they are deep, even though you seems just say it in the passing.

Your passion to educate us, is something I adore most. Now I see “lessons” in every aspect of my life. All hardship is a training ground, all the nice memories are the ones I must struggle to preserve. When Im at the verge of breaking up, you remind me that its just a metamorphosis, and I shall emerge as a stunning butterfly. Just do things, be confident, deal with is…. Learn to manage, learn to mold into surroundings… When Im lazy, you reminded me, of what I want to be, what I want to do most. I… may be nowhere right now without your education, without your words, without your faith in me.

Abah tanye lebih2 kat cikgu tu, Iah pandang kerisauan.

The best thing is that, right now, you succeeded to do that while being our friend, by jumping into our shoes. To do the things we do… watch cartoons (You really did enjoy Tom and Jerry, right?), chatting, video conferences… and treat us generously to many wonderful places, many wonderful experiences.

Growing up, and watching my siblings growing up, I began to understand your philosophy in education. You instill strong basics, and let life experiences mold us. You trust us to go away… to learn. You let the elders to guide the younger. I used to feel dissatisfied, coz I thought I had it harsher when I was young. But then I understand, I am also a tutor in the family. I began to understand, the things shared, and the things to be discovered. Why you allowed this, why you say no to that. And forgive us for being rebellious sometimes. It can’t be helped. Sometimes message is lost during translation. It teaches us about communication too.

And thank you very much, for giving us a happy, loving family, a gift not everyone have. Thanks for keeping our family together, our house is really a sanctuary. Seriously, Im truly thankful to Allah for that. I know, that behind us, there’s a lot of unspoken things, things that we wont understand before. You must have worked so hard. We are sorry if sometimes we take things for granted. We never truly experience hardship, in my opinion.

Abah n ibu dapat parenting tips dari pasangan swan ni ke?

I know we have loads of interesting future that will greet us, but Abah, so far, you are doing such a fine job. Thank you for bringing us to this wonderful world. Thank you for caring, for loving, for nurturing us. Someday when we have my own family, we wont forget your everything you told us, and we’ll make sure, the next generation wont forget too.

You are, by far and forever, the most amazing dad I ever know. People may boast about their dad… but hey, they don’t get you. And I don’t want anybody else for a change. I love you soo much. I may fall in love, I may dream of a future family of my own, but you will always always be my most special Abah and you will always be important in our life. I may not be doing a good job now, I may still depend too much on you. You may still have to hold my hands, and Im sure I want to hold your hand forever… but I pray to Allah, may I be able to love you, and to do as much as I can for you before our fate ends, coz Im more than sure, I wont be able to repay you at all. Im sorry if I am not the epitome of a good daughter (malas n always trouble you) , but just know that I love you very very much.

p/s: Thank you to Ibu too. I might downplay your role in this post, because its Abah’s birthday special, but ibu…. You are my everything too!

P/ss: Exam tomorrow!!! Pray for me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAPPY FATHER"S DAY

-ibu-muni-ame-iah-ake-aiman-

(naun pon tumpang sekaki)

Lets walk hand in hand forever!

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello! :)

Stumbled upon this song while browsing youtube.
Suki desu!



Dedicated to ppl who walk beside me all this while, and for those who dedicated to walk hand in hand with me forever! ARIGATOU!!!!

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Sakura (Cherry Blossom) by Funky Monkey Babys
Lyrics: FUNKY MONKEY BABYS, Kawamura Yuka
Music: FUNKY MONKEY BABYS , Kawamura Yuka

*Tears of gratitude are overflowing in my heart now
I want to protect you forever, forever
Cherry blossoms fall, they fall on us as we feel brand new
Let’s walk hand in hand forever, forever
Until the end of time…
I’ll speak from my heart now and tell you how I truly feel for the first time
I have these emotions, without any lies, only for you
It was so hard for me but I never showed it to anyone else
With you, I felt like I could shed all the tears I kept deep in my heart
From here on out, this path we’re walking on together
Will be full of happiness, sadness and many other things
But you’re not alone anymore because I’ll protect you forever
You gave me all this strength that I have now
(Repeat*)
How many times have we watched these cherry blossoms?
I want to see them again next year and the year after that
I want to see the future we’ve been building up together all this time
The spring wind blew gently and softly caressed your hair
Your smile is precious to me, I want you by my side forever
At first I only had my own dreams, but now I share yours
So my dream now is to protect you until yours come true
I’m sure we’ll fight sometimes, but we’ll make it through each one
Just making you happy is everything to me
(Repeat*)
As the days roll by me it feels like I’ll lose sight of them
But when I look at you a smile suddenly appears on my face
I’ll never forget that small joy
We met, we laughed, and inside our clasped hands
We softly, softly warmed our love
After winter, we started walking together on this path
Where the cherry blossoms fall forever, forever
Tears of gratitude are overflowing in my heart now
I want to protect you forever, forever
Cherry blossoms fall, they fall as we feel brand new
Let’s walk hand in hand forever, forever
Until the end of time…
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Romaji:

*arigatou no namida ga ima kono mune ni afureteru yo
zutto zutto kimi wo mamoritai
sakura ga furu sakura ga furu atarashii bokura no ue ni
zutto zutto te wo tsunaide aruite ikou
itsu made mo…

ima hajimete uchi akeru yo boku no hontou no kimochi wo
daisuki na kimi ni dake itsuwari no nai kono kimochi wo
zutto kurushikatta dare ni mo misenakatta
mune no oku no hou ni tamatta namida kimi to nara nagaseru ki ga shita
kore kara saki boku to kimi ga aruite iku kono michi ni wa
ureshii koto kanashii koto iro iro aru to omou
dakedo mou hitori ja nai boku ga zutto mamoru kara
sonna tsuyosa wo kureta no wa zenbu kimi nan da

(Repeat*)

futari de miru nankaime no sakura darou? mata rainen sarainen mo mitai yo
ima made kore kara mo ashita kara mo tomo ni kizuki agete iku mirai wo
yawarakaku fuita haru no kaze ga sotto kimi no kami wo nabikaseta
sono egao ga itoshii zutto boku no soba ni ite hoshii
moto moto hitori dake no yume datta hazu ga kimi no yume mo kasanatte
sore wo kanaeru tame ni kimi wo mamori nuku koto ga ima no yume ni natte
tama ni wa kenka wo suru koto mo aru darou
demo hitotsu hitotsu nori koete
tada kimi wo shiawase ni suru koto ga ima no boku mo subete

(Repeat*)

nagasareru hibi no naka mi ushinai sou dakedo
futo kimi wo mitara nanigenai egao de
sonna chiisa na shiawase zutto wasurenai kara

kimi to deai kimi to warai tsunaida te no hira no naka de
sotto sotto atatameta omoi ga
fuyu wo koete aruki dashita bokura no kono michi no ue ni
zutto zutto sakura ga furu

arigatou no namida ga ima kono mune ni afureteru yo
zutto zutto kimi wo mamoritai
sakura ga furu sakura ga furu atarashii bokura no ue
zutto zutto zutto te wo tsunaide aruite ikou
itsu made mo…