Sunday, October 19, 2008

The trial....

Assalamualaikum wbt n hye...

Esok ade 2 xm, kene bace banyak, banyak, banyak (guna suara n style Mai Ahn, murid Sholehah).
Hu~ scary gle.
Scarier when ppl ask about it, r u ready? I feel interrogated.
Why I always feel inferior to everyone, feel guilty and all?
Ugh...

Some ppl says i tried too hard I wear my self off...
Some ppl say i dun try at all...
(on different occasion n subject)
Cam confuse plak kn?

So mestinye sbb salah fokus tenaga. Salah priority, salah perancangan atau x de perancangan.
Hati kat tempat lain pada sesuatu masa, atau pada setiap masa...
Sebab x de support atau x pandai mencari support, atau ego terhadap support.
Ataupun hormat dgn org atas dasar takut dan bukan sayang...
ya, mungkin x cukup sayang. X cukup sayang orang, x cukup sayang diri...
atau kene syg, tapi x rase.
Mencari yang lain, mengharap yg x dek dan melepaskan yg di tangan...
atau memilih dari dua atau tiga yang patut erat dipegang saja...
ataupun x cukup dekat dgn Tuhan.
Guilty abes.

Banyak nk kene improve but sumtimes we have to face the reality and take the blow,kn?
X pe x pe...
Be positive kn? Sekarang bukan mase nak depress ke rase bakka ke hape...penat gle jaga mood swing nih. Mcm org menopause plak, haha.
Lepak2... <-- aih, lupe, cannot do that now! hehehe...

Okay, back to study. Nk focus, nk letak hati, nk betulkan niat.

Papepun kwn, baca ni, kalau baik amek, kalau buruk, ha check ade x kt diri sendri. Kalau syg, support sy...cheewah. Kalau benci, just know that i feel bad, n trying to improve. Kalau terer, tolong, kalau x bape terer, doakan je la. Kalau x paham, x pe, baca buku lagi baik dr baca org yg x pandai mengekspressi diri. Kalau paham, paham-paham jela...

Kalau lawan yg bace? Hurm...jgn lawan dgn saye, kte kwn n sedare je tau. Kalau kte berbaik2, banyak manfaatnye. paling2 buleh doa-mendoakan.Kalau pnah saket ati...ckp kat saye, maybe ade ubat. Atau kite cube cari minyak cocoa butter yg buleh fade the scar. Atau hape2 jela.

Dan kalau dah x larat nk bace nih, buleh berenti. Babai!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Testing the Powder? What???

Assalamualaikum wbt n hye!

Hurm, Illani went to Italy with her parents and brought home some nice fridge magnets for her housemates (US!)...Soo sweet of her kan?

She abselutely have no idea what they said, so we end up translating them on the net. So, now, for some Italian lesson~~~~

  • "impara das passato, vivi il presente e spera nel futuro" means "Learn from the past, live the present and hope for the future"
  • "dire cose importanti con semplicita e una cosa importante" literary means, "say important things with simplicity and an important thing"... hurm, who can help interprete?
  • means ""potrei anche non possedere ricchezze o fama, ma ho dei nipoti che non hanno prezzo"I could not have wealth or fame, but I have grandchildren who are priceless"
But hurm... I chosen a nice design, but when we cheched the direct translation, I cannot think of any smart meaning of this phrase, "attenzione stiamo testando la polvere, non toccate i campioni" which directly translated to "attention we are testing the powder, do not touch the samples".

Haha... Im searching for the meaning so anyone who knows, please tell me,okay? But i like that it sounded scientific, like testing a chemical or antrax, hahaha!

My own intrepetation is, let life unfolds by its own and dont try to meddle with it by trying too hard or going too harshly, so handle it carefully. Hurm, that doesnt sound really convincing but I really have no other idea.

Throw me yours.

Friday, October 10, 2008

The Gift

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye~~

Just finished this new book by Cecelia Ahern. Her previous books are sweet, I read em all, haha.


  • PS/ I Love You : is a sweet chicklit. Its something I might think about doing pun. But i dont think the motion picture did justice to it. The opening ruins the sweetness of the story. Too much eye-sore.

  • Rosie Dunne aka Where Rainbow Ends aka Love, Rosie : My fav so far coz the theme about childhood love. Haha... but I was really tortured waiting for the ending. Sakit jiwa...why it is soo hard for them to get together!!!! When i bought it the title was Rosie Dunne...so Im one of the earliest kot. I really like it coz its in form of letters and sms and chatlog.

  • If You Could See Me Now aka A Silver Lining: Its about loosening up...Would make a nice Disney movie. Wanna see it filmed. Predictable but I like the flow, so ok. Imaginary frens, cute kn? Why anak2 org putih je ade imaginary frens ek?

  • A Place Called Here: Nice premise about place where all the lost things end up. Ok la... I like the "find me" theme.

  • Thanks for The Memories: Its really funny that I know all the placed mentioned in this book sbb Dublin, hehe. TCD, Viking Splash Bus Tour, haha Really2 predictable, but yeah, thats how Cecelia's books work, you know what will happen, how it will happen yg nice. I like how blood become romantic, tp flawed sbb if u get ur blood transfused from someone, the blood will eventually die off pun, n turnover of blood suppose to make the magic goes away. But if i put down my medic student cap n try to accept the cheezyness, kinda sweet gak aaa.

So, now... The Gift. i dont know how (not) long it has been on the shelf, but i bought the Hardcover straightaway in Eason. Ngahaha...didnt even wait for the paperback. But it looks too enticing, the giftwrapper theme and the red ribbon...

So, the review...
Basicly I think this book feels a little bit mature, perhaps because its less of sweet2ness kot. So, for me, this book is for everyone, not just for girls who crave for sugar-coated stories. It still retain Cecelia Ahern's signature magic. And the best part for me is its less predictable than her usual book.

This book is about a guy who needs to be at 2 places at the same time, all the time. He things he's a good juggler, but the fact is that the always flew over things and have relationships on the surface, because he have soo many things to do. He's just living life on the fast lane, and forgetting that you should pause and enjoy life, and there are ppl who matters in ur life.

But one day, he choose to help a homelessman, a gift he said... so the man returned his favour, by giving the thing he needs the most. Time.

I dont really like the brief parallel narration about the "turkey-boy", but the main story and this one was tied neatly in the end, so ill forgive it, hehe.

What else to say?Just hear some words from the author herself-lah...



...oh, ill give it 3.5/5.

p/s- Just read "The Secret Diary of Adrian Mole" by Sue Townsend... geeky and kelaka.Will read the rest of the series. Reading other people diary is fun!
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Thursday, October 9, 2008

Hati Aku Sakit~~~

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye.....

Serius, something is wrong with me right now. Iman is not at peak, and I need some diagnostic tests. But, definitely, my heart is suffering. Some preliminary tests says that.Hurm... Ya Allah, help me.

Last liqa' Nuqaba', we have some discussions about hadeeth no 34 from Hadith 40.

Ill quote the Malay direct translation of the hadeeth (please look up the arabic version for accuracy):
Dari Abi Said al-Khudri r.a berkata:
Dia mendengar Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda:"Sesiapa melihat antara kamu perkara mungkar, maka hendaklah dia menegah (mengubah) dengan tangannya, maka sekiranya tidak mampu (berkuasa), maka dengan lidahnya, maka sekiranya tidak mampu maka dengan hatinya, dan itulah selemah-lemah iman."

I saw a mungkar action took place recently, but i didn't do anything at the spot. In the hadith, the word used was "fa"=thus, not "tsumma"=after that... Its time related, I should have acted upon it as i see it, not wait till its over, or wait till another mungkar act happened. But that point of time, the best I did was hating it, truly, and pray in my heart, please not let em do that...which is pathetic, coz i keep remembering this hadeeth we discussed, and I settled for the weakest of Iman... (and i feel depressed the whole night, duh).

As much as we can, we have to use our power first, then resort to the lesser option, but to admit defeat earlier on, was my embarrassment. Its a really good diagnostic test.

Its easy to call people to do good things, but its extremely hard to say, dont do that bad thing. maybe kinda easy to say, but when it happened directly in front of you, then its kinda hard, right. Sometimes you are afraid to say it. Afraid of getting embarrased, afraid of losing friends, afraid of being labelled Miss Goody Goody Girl or Mr Civic, stuff like that. But yeah, we know that we should fear Allah rather than fearing the humans. Coz then, in the Hearafter He will ask us why didnt we prevent, and if we say we are afraid of humans, then He will give it straight to our face, "By right you should fear Me."

We always pursuing the hikmah in giving advices, its a good thing pun. Stories about how Rasulullah s.a.w and Saidina Hassan n Hussein correcting people in creative and subtle ways, but effective, are really sweet and encouraging. But if you cant think of what to do, then you should not abandone the advice for hikmah. Paham ke? But remember that being harsh on people or matter that need harshness, that is hikmah too.

So, Ya Allah.. give me strength.

Okay, so, right now, while im at it, just let me say it. Sadly, we are almost desensetised by the vast amout of this mungkar thingy that happened, I think. Around us. Among us. But most of the time, I feel really disgusted... but am really sad, because these people seems to flaunt their sins. Im not saying that if you want to do sins, then do it in private. Theres no privacy in this world afterall, all you do, even the slightest smallest niat in ur heart, Allah knows. But combination of doing it, and exhibiting it WITH pride somemore, its hurm.. I dont know how to put it.

O my friends in love... to preach of loving for Allah's love is other topic, but let say you are in this relationship. Rule no.1, having a declaration or engagement doesnt make that girl/guy yours. So, BEHAVE! You know this thing about "La taqrobu zina..."="Dont get near zina", so hey, why should you cant even "get near" it? Coz you know if you play near the edge, the probability to fall is really high. And its really one thing leading to another, I dont need to elaborate, i think.

So whats with the eyes, and the hands that wander? And being really close, or even sticking together like velcro or something. And flaunt it live, publicly. Or even taking a happy2 lovey-dovey picture and showing off in friendster for all to see. Well, there are some ok couple pics, OK je la, coz theres considerable distance, maybe just for memories, ok la gak... like taking pics with frens... ok la kot. but frens or lovers, getting too close like ur gonna kiss or something, touching sommore, holding hands ke, hugging summore, or laying down together (what were u doing? Im not getting anywhere but, gosh, take care of urself la...) (saying this coz there are these happen)...come on my friends, i love you guys so im saying this, stop-lah. I dont want to jusdge people, i love you as friends, i love you as people, but some actions are sins or hovering near it, if sins are like fire, ur either burned or feel really hot right now.

some example with my lousy paint drawings (pics on frenster of live-action)-->

Kinda ok.

Haish....

If Im a mom I will cry. Its hard to imagine how you can show this to public and then some friends will give encouraging comments like, "waa.. ur so romantic." and stuff. Why cant you be more sensitive guys. Your friend needs help.

This is common, one thing becoz they usually take pic like this themselves. But for those who have this kind of picture, i like you as friends, im happy you found somebody, but i hate ur photos. (and im not jealous coz i dont have that kinda photos, Im just glad.)

I think im turning emo. And will nag. But Im sad i dont know how to say this in ur face, or even find nice way to say it. Hurm... will try.

Behave. Girls, you are valuable. Get yourself higher price tag. Im not wishing bad, but say u dont end up with that guy who has been all over you, i dont think ur future husband will appreciate ur history. Dont let that creep....creeps.hehe... Guys. Samela... Allah knows, remember that. There are far too many cases of "oopsies" even for Malay Muslim, which is too sad. It all started somewhere.

~~~Love yourself before you love someone else.~~~
(nk wat tutorial plak... lega skit)

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

ICCI Health Awareness Programme n Idris Tawfiq Tour

Assalamualaikum wbt n hye!

Ustaz Salam told us once in Syahadatul Haq talk, that if we found out about something really good, out of this world punye good, of course we will want to share it with everyone, esp the ppl we care about,kn? Thus, let me share with you guys, all the nice things that will happen, this coming week. Plan ahead, my frens, coz this is HOT!
(haha, im soo not good at promoting, but here I am, giving my best shot.)

So, 1st, its the Idris Tawfiq speaker's tour, powered by FOSIS (FEDERATION of Student Islamic Societies). Why this is soo cool? Bcoz, Idris Tawfiq is a really talented n experienced speaker pun. So, checkout when he will come to ur area...



Click the picture for bigger poster and details.Please click, hehe..
And checkout FOSIS's cool website. (with more info)

And next, is the ICCI Health awareness Program, that will be held from 15th-19th October 2008. Its kinda overlap a bit with Idris Tawfiq's schedule. But its fine, choose whichever you want, i think medical students around UCD can easily go to ICCI, and the programme is huge! So many great activities have been arranged. Its going to be officiated by Ireland's Minister of Integration, Conor Lenihan.

But please be informed that you will need to register to Lesley at 01-2080000 or Lesley@islamireland.ie.

Oh, and they will need some medical students to help with some medical checkup thingies too. IMAM will help ICCI, insyaAllah, so if you want to help up, you can contact me for now until IMAM says otherwise.

Okay, lets go to the tentative:

Wed,15 Oct-

3pm-5pm Opening and Talk->Importance of Monitoring Ur Health, then a buffet!

Thurs,16 Oct-
10am-1pm MABS workshop (stress, money management, dll) in Seminar Room.
Women's Health Check - Dr. Lawahd in Small Prayer Room.
Dental Workshop in MPH
10am-5pm Nurses MOT (assesment) in MPH
2pm-5pm Fitness Class (women) in Seminar Room
Relaxation and Aromatherapy in Small Prayer Room

Friday,17 Oct-
10am-1pm Women's Health Check - Dr. Lawahd in Small Prayer Room.
Relaxation Classes in Seminar Room.
Kids Health-PE Instructor in MPH
10am-5pm Nurses MOT (assesment) in MPH
2pm-5pm FGM Seminar (about gynaecology...) in Seminar Room
2pm-5pm Food Fair in MPH

Sat,18 Oct-
10am-5pm Nurse MOT (assesment) in MPH
10am-1pm Male Cancer Workshop in Seminar Room
10am-1pm Female Cancer Workshop in Small Prayer Room
Mens fitness workout in MPH

Sunday,19 Oct-
10-1pm First Aid Training and CPR by Order of Malta in MPH
(maybe good for UCD 1st year students, hehe)

Just remember that all the programmes must be booked in advance because of limited places. So, start looking at ur planner,guys! Lets promote and support these events because Im sure that alot of good things will come out of it. yeah, even if ur bz and cant attend, perhaps its ur words that bring others to these wonderful events. Thats a contribution too, right???

Okay guys, hope you are enjoying ur studies or going back to work after Eid holiday (not that we have one over here)... hu~~ Life will continue as usual with all the society works and exams and chores, but dont forget those sweet nights of Ramadhan. We are missing them already, right? Lets make some "reunion" then.

 Assalamualaikum wbt n bye!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

The Second Button~

Assalamualaikum wbt n hye!

Okay, perhaps Im the last person on earth who know this but whatever, this is sooo sweet, I want to share it with every girls out there who has a highschool crush. Kidding... This is for everyone who is poyo and buy cheezy stuffs, just like me.

"The second button of the top of a male's uniform is often given away to a female he is in love with, and is considered a way of confession. The second button is the one closest to the heart and is said to contain the emotions from all three years attendance at the school."<--Japanese hi-school custom. (quoted from wiki) Aww~~~ Melting with sweetness~~~ p/s: I didn't get one. But who needs one when u can get a real person. (peace!) So, next, I want to share this sweet song by an awesome group, Funky Monkey Babys aka Funmon.This is where i get to know about the second button thingy.

And the lyrics are:
This love, just one love, that I have for you is going crazy in my heart, my heart
Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms are blooming in my heart
Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms are blooming, flowers called “you”

I’m glad I fell in love with you, I’m glad I got to touch you
It was the first time I felt like I couldn’t do anything alone
Even cold winters become as warm as spring in the blink of an eye
The scenery floats before my eyes, shining, a wonderful day
Do you remember the Inokashira train to our town?
Crushed together on the packed train, holding the strap, you were in my arms
When you put your arms around me I learned for the first time what love meant
You were smaller than I imagined, I made up my mind to protect you

This love, just one love, that I have for you is going crazy in my heart, my heart
Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms are blooming in my heart
Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms are blooming, flowers called “you”

I’m grateful that I met you in the first place, in these same times in this world
As I think that, all the anxiety I’ve felt up to now disappears, one love
Being awkward, fooling around, talking all evening
The more I come to know of you, the more you seem to me like a sparkling treasure
And it’s because of that that I feel like I’d be hopeless on my own, but once again your smile saves me
I feel like I’d be hopeless on my own, but then I’m wrapped in a huge love
I can forget every bit of the sadness in my heart
If I have you, I can be much stronger than I am now

This love, just one love, that I have for you is going crazy in my heart, my heart
Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms are blooming in my heart
Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms are blooming, flowers called “you”

I’m not alone anymore, you’re in all the scenery I see
My smiles multiply, and when we’re together our tears are divided by two
Let’s entrust this huge dream to tomorrow and walk on

This love, just one love, that I have for you makes me so, so tender
Happy tears, sad tears, I want to take them all in
On bright mornings and freezing nights, let’s be together, forever

This love, just one love, that I have for you is going crazy in my heart, my heart
Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms are blooming in my heart
Cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms, cherry blossoms are blooming, flowers called “you”

I’m not lonely, even as I go home, the warmth doesn’t leave my days
Thank you, from now on I’ll live for the love between us
I’m not lonely, even as I go home, the warmth doesn’t leave my days
Thank you, from now on I’ll live for the love between us

Romaji:
Kimi ni sasagu tada hitotsu no ai ga kono mune ni kono mune ni sakimidareteru
Sakura sakura sakura saku yo boku no kokoro ni
Sakura sakura sakura saku yo kimi to iu hana ga

Kimi wo suki ni natte yokatta kimi to fureaete yokatta
Hitori ja nani mo dekinakatta sonna kimochi hajimete datta
Tsumetai fuyu demo matataku ma ni haru mitai ni atatakaku nari
Me no mae ukanda koukei kagayaite iru wandafoo dei
Oboeteru kai? Futari no machi made hashitte ita inokashira sen
Manin densha uzumaru tsurikawa kimi wa boku no ude no naka
Kata wo dakiyoseta sono toki hajimete ai no imi wo shitta
Souzou shiteta yori mo motto chiisakatta kimi wo mamorou to

Kimi ni sasagu tada hitotsu no ai ga kono mune ni kono mune ni sakimidareteru
Sakura sakura sakura saku yo boku no kokoro ni
Sakura sakura sakura saku yo kimi to iu hana ga

Mazu onaji jidai ni kono sekai de kimi ni deaeta koto ni kansha
Suru to ima made no fuan ga kiete nakunatte iku one love
Gikushaku shitari jare attari hitobanjuu hanashitari
Shireba shiru hodo kagayaku takaramono ni omoete kuru kimi dakara koso
Hitori ja dame ni nari sou demo mata sono egao ni sukuwareru
Hitori ja dame ni nari sou demo ooki na ai ni kurumareru
Kokoro no naka no kanashimi sae subete wasurerareru
Boku wa kimi ga ireba ima yori motto zutto tsuyoku nareru

Kimi ni sasagu tada hitotsu no ai ga kono mune ni kono mune ni sakimidareteru
Sakura sakura sakura saku yo boku no kokoro ni
Sakura sakura sakura saku yo kimi to iu hana ga

Mou hitori ja nai utsuru keshiki sono subete ni kimi ga ite
Kono egao ga nanbai ni mo naru shi sono namida wa futari de waru ni
Ooki na yume ashita ni takushi aruite yukou

Kimi ni sasagu tatta hitotsu no ai de konna ni mo konna ni mo yasashiku nareru
Ureshii namida kanashii namida uketometai kara
Mabushii asa mo kogoeru yoru mo soba ni iru yo zutto

Kimi ni sasagu tada hitotsu no ai ga kono mune ni kono mune ni sakimidareteru
Sakura sakura sakura saku yo boku no kokoro ni
Sakura sakura sakura saku yo kimi to iu hana ga

Sabishiku nai kaerimichi mo nukumori ga todaenai hibi yo
Arigatou kore kara mo kimi to futari no ai no tame ni ikiyou
Sabishiku nai kaerimichi mo nukumori ga todaenai hibi yo
Arigatou kore kara mo kimi to futari no ai no tame ni ikiyou

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Brooch N' Keyring Happiness!!!

Assalamualaikum wbt....

Osashiburi ne~ Its been a while. Im waiting for few brooches and a special keychain to bake in the oven. What? Baked? Yeah, coz i made em out of FIMO clay so i have to bake em for 30 mins, then its gonna be ready. Yay!

I made few for myself just for fun recently...then wear em to uni.But ppl sez they are kinda cute, and i should make em available for sale, so, thsts what i did, hehe. I made em available for order!Custom made brooch and keyring, that should sound kinda nice,kn?

Its kinda fun. But im not that good, so i feel bad to put high prices... so i sell a brooch for 2 euros and a keychain for 3 euros. I put my lil "stall" in the prayer room with forms for ppl to order. See..

Im not sure if this is a good idea or not, but i think if people like it, they can have cute stuff at small expanse. They can even ask for anything they want as long as, x ngade sgt, hihi. N i put some sample so they know my craftsmanship, which is, duh... lopek je. Haha, but this is really fun!

See..see... the brooches i made, hope they looks cute~~~

Bear brooch for Kak Era.
Suraya's.Anis Maisarah's.
MASH's.Sholehah's.Special butterfly for me roomate.Muslima~
Fragile heart sign for my bag.


Lil' Cagari.

Himawari.
Hello Kitty.Sushi set.

Lil white butterfly.

I love karipap.

Ladybird.
I made smaller version of this teddy.
Adah's Lil Teddy.


Simple random flower.

Mr Bee.

For those who support PUISI, i shall give 25% the money you pay to PUISI coz they hv been so kind to help me advertise and even open booth there nnt. hihi...sweet, but only if im able to finish considerable amount b4 the event, if not, what will be there on the booth,kn?

Haha... tgkla. Just finished making ten "nametags" for the hosts of an open house tomorrow. Which house? Secret.. Ill post their finished "nametags" later. hihi....

Contact me if you want to book.

See ya!